My reasons for crying:

Wednesday: 10:00 am I didn’t feel like ‘baby sitting’ people, but yet I had to at work.  2:00 pm A corporate lady SNAPPED at me on the phone while I was in the middle of a sentence, for no reason.  She emailed me later apologizing b/c I had ‘no idea’ how her day had been - um, yes, lady: DITTO.  7:00 pm At dinner with Papa, the stupid waiter forgot that Tatum was a young child - and put a sizzling hot skillet right in front of her - and yes, she grabbed it. Yelp - Scream - Cry.  Waiter: “um….I’m sorry….um….can I get you some ice…..wow….I’m sorry…..”  We left the restaurant.  7:50 pm Tatum better, then she falls with a toy, cuts up her lip & gums are bleeding.  Yelp - Scream - Cry.

Thursday: 5:45 am wake up for a very important meeting in Dallas.  11:20 am Intense (yet understood) questioning on our desire & call to plant a church in Austin.  11:45 am I begin to cry as I speak of Chris’ strengths - I can’t seem to get past Strength #2 - due to emotions - tears in front of 5 grown men.  12:20 pm Still teary-eyed speaking of our calling to Austin - and hoping that our words are convincing these gentlemen.  I don’t like to feel like I have to prove myself sometimes.  12:30 pm  These gentlemen pray for us - and I’m teary eyed and blotchy, they show me to the restroom.  2:00 pm  My hair is becoming flat because I am out of hairspray. I hate flat hair.  4:00 pm Getting on the road back to Austin and I am completely over-analyzing our meeting - thinking the worst (and furious that I cried in front of people).  4:40 pm Still over analyzing and causing a migraine for myself and I also feel bloated.  5:30 pm  Tatum wakes up from nap in car - extremely hungry.  We stop to get milk from a gas station - back on road - I feed her granola bar while she drinks her milk.  Yelp - Scream - Cry.  She’s choking/gagging while we are going 80 mph on I35 South.  I jump to the backseat while Chris pulls over.  Tatum throws up her stuff - and I sit in the back and sing with her, play blocks, and read a book.    6:50 pm 5 miles from home and Tatum is starving. More Yelp - Scream - Cry.  I am practically Yelp - Scream - Crying myself.

Good reasons to cry for today:

10:30 am Tatum got to hang out with “Tish” while we had our meeting at the District Office.  1:00 pm Had lunch with Miche & Lydia - who have returned from 6+ long years in New Mexico!  3:00 pm Met up with Michelle at Chic Fil A and saw Tate for the first time!  7:15 pm We are safe in our living room feeding Tatum dinner.  8:00 pm Tatum is playful and happy and sitting on my lap or dancing/singing a song.  Makes you forget about all the Yelp - Scream - Cry.  8:15 pm  Tatum asleep. Mommy blogging.  Needing a big fat hug from Chris.  Signing off.

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