I remember when I first started reading the book of Job for myself.  You remember when you stopped taking the word of the person in the pulpit and started asking/answering questions for yourself?  Job was always hard for me to understand.  I guess because I grew-up in the Bible Belt and we were taught “have enough faith and you will never suffer.”  So I couldn’t understand why God kept allowing one thing after another harm Job.  He was so strong and confident in God’s faithfulness.  He refused to allow anyone to tell him different.

Today I returned to work, so I only got to see Tatum at 8am.  I went at my lunch to feed and see her but a new baby was being introduced to NICU so they asked us to leave.  So I saw my angel for 30secs.  Tonight after work Summer and I went to spend the evening with her.  When we arrived Summer was feeling warm.  We asked a nurse to take her temp and she had a temp of 101.8 degrees.  She called her doctor and will see her tomorrow morning first thing.  However, with a temp she can’t visit with Tatum.  They require her to wait until she is without a high grade temp for 24hrs.  That is horrible right now when your daughter is in NICU and all you want to do is see her.

I have so many questions for God.  I know His big enough to handle this and my questions, but I wonder if I’m big enough to ask and trust His answer?  Please pray for Summer and Tatum.  Our baby is doing great and eating really good.  But now Summer is suffering.  I feel helpless and need to feel friends.

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